Islam,
Judaism, Christianity and even the
Brotherhood of Assassins, they all have creeds. People who subscribe to these
and other sects live by these creeds and die by these creeds. I am a writer and
I need a creed that will be the force that drives me in that magical moment when fingers tap keyboard
or thumb and forefinger clutch pen to jot down my brain noodles and present
them as useful thought. I need a creed that'll set a fire
to my mind and transform the words I conjure from mere to more.
I
kneel here, in the darkest cavern of my mind, all voodoo ritual-like, and swear
my fealty to my Muse: that from
this day forth I shall live by this keyboard and pen, I shall die clutching these writers'
tools and if I were to be resurrected by the likes of Dr Victor Frankenstein
that I'll be a zombie whose hands are perpetually ink stained. With my last
breath, as I stand facing Death I'll assualt her with a barrage of words worthy
of a scroll in a dusty library. Thus I will be welcome in the mighty company of the legendary scribes.
I
promise to write everyday, whether I'm feeling blue, green or grey. I promise
to do battle with that white sheet of paper (digital or tangible) even though I
know I will suffer defeat more often than not. I want to weather that 'long defeat'
like Tolkien's Elves of old did their war against Morgoth, that darkest of
lords. Like Liesel Meminger, the book thief, I want to fall in love with words;
I want to stand up and hate them and always endeavour to make them right.
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I
write to tell my stories, the stories of people whose lives breathe and at
times bleed into mine; I write to share my mind, heart and soul with other
minds, hearts and souls. I write selfishly and I write selflessly. I seek to
make sense of life and to be understood in life. I write nonsense when I find I
cannot make sense and I'm misunderstood or I stand under amiss. I write with a
lot of fear - it's always near, whispering caution and poison in my ear. I
negotiate personal space with fear, it's a lifelong tug of war for the real
estate of my mind. I write to play well (leg
godt) with words like people play with LEGO bricks. I stick words together
to construct grand structures I often have no names for but they make sense
somehow - their lack of conventional sense make them so. As I've said before,
I'm a wordslinger, my words, the pieces of my heart, are the bullets with which
I shoot at readers and pierce souls. I aim for a gutshot and, ironically, I'm
the one who spills my guts (blood and shit all over a page). My headshots
rejuvenate brains instead of spilling them like secrets, like b3ans. I write to
spread good rumours like a disease, but without the dis- affixed, I do it with
ease. I give readers a good infection. I construct my words in simile in the
hope that readers deconstruct them with a smile.
I
am a writer. I always try my imaginary best. I frequent the Well at the World's
End: I am well-read, well-informed and well-written.
